Fiesta sa Jaro
February 2, 2010I reckon the celebration of the fiest of Our Lady of the Candles.
The day starts with a Eucharistic celebration at Jaro Cathedral. People from all walks of life, come together for their offering, saying their own personal prayers and giving thanks. I could vividly remember a crowd lining like ants walking forward the house of God to worship.
As the clock starts ticking to 11 o’clock the streets are full of foot traffic.
A wife cuddling her small little child hurrying to catch up the shade of the tree.
Lovers holding hands endlessly loitering along the Jaro Plaza.
Students chatting endlessly buying peddlers’ goods.
These are few memoires of the happy times during Jaro Fiesta tsk tk so sad waay ko sa picture for 2010^_^
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
December 25-27,2009
Reth and I hopped off late the 25th of December to travel to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
We stop over Johor Bharu and take our lunch @ VIVO restaurant.
Then we began our journey off to KL (another 6 hours drive from JB) 
Here is my souvenier photo taken by Reth at the footsteps of the Petronas Tower.
Shoots at the KLCC Shopping Center 
Ang usa ang pinaka malanding hayup sa balat ng lupa
January 16, 2010
Ang usa ang pinaka malanding hayop sa balat ng lupa”,)
Company Uniform
November 11, 2009Whoah! at long last we settled for a new set of company uniforms. After so many designs, malay, chinese, and filipino staff finally meet in the crossroads! Thanks God!
Half a decade
Time is of essence to almost every creature in this planet.
A truly significant factor to test how staunch an individual or two couples can be.
It creeps like a thief in the stillness of the night and left the unwary so much of the so called
experience.
For the past half decade, I am so grateful that i have spend life with Joseph.
Like the twinkling stars
, ours has been through its brightest and dimmest light.
The ups 
and downs 
made us even realize the importance of each others love and
companionship. Thus, not only ourselves but also our relationship had grown through the test
of time.
I would simply like to express the happiness i felt being so blessed in this lifetime.
‘Till the next decade…
LOST
September 13, 2009Ssssssssssiiiiiiiiigggggghhhhhhh
i dunno where or even how to start what…
tsk tsk tsk
the cunning silence makes my mind pause
and think of nothingness
maybe this isn’t a day for me to write
but any how i feel like doing it
or maybe just wanted to over do it
tsk tsk tsk
maybe on this mood i can share
more of me
what is drooling inside me
how i longed some things to just happen
in any way i wish
a drastic change of air i bet
made me just to sit here hitting the keys
L O S T
puzzled.
With pakas Gelyn @ AMK Ave 3
AJ’s Visit
May 13, 2009Last May 1st i have a veryspecial visitor.
His name is AJ.
We strolled and just enjoy each other company.
Here’s a picture of him:
On Acceptance
March 27, 2009Fear of losing someone is not the absence of courage but of of acceptance op letting go of all the good and bad memories you have shared through the passing years
Dating
February 16, 2009
This is my valentines photo taken by my beau
We had lunch at Shakeys SM City and enjoyed each other’s company.
p.s.
Thank you for the flowers”,)
xoxo
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New Year 2009
January 15, 2009Welcome 2009
We hope this year will yield us good harvest and bountiful blessings”,)
All the best!!!
hear… hear…
Tetanus
December 3, 2008Got a text from mom instructing me to verify if Rodolfo Peres was indeed confined in Western Visayas Medical Center. I hurriedly grab the phone and dial the hospital’s line. C O N F I R M E D. My uncle opol is under grave condition. I rang mom and told her the bad news. My uncled suffered from tetanus. He is under 50/50 condition.
My mom knew of this from an officemate who texted her that she was called over the radio. Sigh too bad.
That night we check on his condition at the hospital and bought the necessary medicines needed. The meds were on high doses that every time he breathe, it seems he’sgonna lose it.
The bad news was conveyed to his relatives in Canada and all were bothered.
Not so long, before the mid day, mom received a call from my uncle’s wife that uncle opol’s condition was already severe and he might pass away any moment. Mom with my sister Angeli ran to the hospital but before they arrive, uncle opol passed away;(
It was apalling to realize that it has come to this. Apparently, it was the best for him rather than to live like a few weeks long and suffer the agony of pain. Recalling hid lived life, his bother told that uncle opol was once given the chance to chose between going back to Canada or marrying. And he happily chose the latter which bore him seven children. Seven children and a wife who will long for him forever.
May the soul of Rodolfo Perez rest in peace…AMEN
wAttA thUrsdAy rUsh!?.
November 6, 2008I woke up by the ring on my phone. It’s 7:30 a.m. a little too early to rise. Yet I fixed my bed and started my day lay-outing invitations of my tita scheduled to be wed 15th of this month. I don’t have anything in mind on how or what the design should be. It seems that am running out of time. 7, 8 , 9 . . . 15 the big day.
After a while I decided to take a bath and dress up. I went to Atrium. Strolling like a child, I am looking after my footsteps just as maybe i could see the perfect wedding invite for my tita. Not a hundred steps, I reached Atrium and headed directly towards school supplies section. I have the agony on deciding which of which to buy so i buy both (too bad; especially I have a budget constrain issue on this. sigh). An hour and a half had past, and finally I have some stuff for me to start”,)
Back home, trying on with my designs, boarders came. My concentration destructed, I worked like a log. The weather might have also affected my stamina (It was announce early today that Iloilo is at signal no. 1…). There was a knock on the door and I knew it was him. I am LATE again for our date [(good thing my beau is so understanding. . . hmmm (at at some point in time) let me clear that ;p].
Instead of dinning at Max’s to celebrate our anniv, we ate ‘lutong bahay’ vegies. My beau and I were so full we felt like sleeping. We sat for a couple of minutes and started commemorating our anniv. We visited the fav brand of his; Lee at SM delgado and bought a his reserved shirt. DRIZZLING, we ran hurriedly to ride a jeepney to SM City.
FYI: Since the time I meet this MY MAN, all he knew was LEE and Guess brand which spells Q U A L I T Y “,). iNDEED JUST LIKE HIM.
Our first stop was Mr. QUICKIE, we checked whether they could arrange for the sole of his leather shoes, unfortunately, no size was available. With our shrugged shoulders, we hop through shopping units for their red tagged on sale. He stopped over a store while I explore the goods at the department store. I picked two tops; an office wear and a beach inspired one. As I looked around, I saw no shadows of him, Thus I take a tour. Once. Twice. Thrice. My feet ached so bad that i can’t stand no longer. I sat on the porch at the ladies shoe department until i received a text message that He was looking for me. Thanks to technology. It is so hard to find a person even in a 500 sq. m. area dur to heavy traffic, etc. At long last he found me. We decided to refresh ourselves. At first, both of us were uneasy, tired with mixed emotions until the food was served. There are some things which are best left unspoken.
He drop me off to work and peacefully parted ways”,)
My work day is just starting…5, 6, 7, ’till the newspaper is done
wAttA thUrsdAy rUsh!?.
The Journey
October 30, 2008We know what we want…
We certainly have the picture of it…
Yet as we go through the journey, we struggle and sometimes find ourselves lost in the midst of nowhere. During these changing times, we must learn to be steadfast, stand still and draw strength from deep within.
ACCEPTANCE, FOCUS and DETERMINATION are but mere words without practice. Go on and move forward toward what you have ever dreamed of and you will see that the road is never that far”,)
Singapore Experience
I hurried my way off from our office, a few walk away from my place. It was almost 4 o’clock in the afternoon and i have yet to pack my things to catch up with my 8:20 flight. I had two luggages, a suitcase and a hand bag. All set, i waited for mom to arrived from Pototan; our hometown, to take me to Iloilo Airport at Cabatuan. There were few drizzles that we ran tip-toed to the shade going down the cab. I had cold feet checking in for the thought that carrier might be delayed again or worse stranded due to the prior week’s report. Good thing, everything went well except for a short delay. The pilot maneuvered the plane with much enthusiasm. I arrived in Manila 11:00 p.m. safe. I transferred from terminal 3 to Terminal 2 via shuttle bus which cost me P20.00. I seated to the passengers lounge where all juans stayed while waiting for their trips.
Luckily, I met a schoolmate in my high school years. We chatted endlessly ’till she knew that her tita had landed a few hours ago in terminal 3 and not in terminal 2. We bid our good-byes and gave each other a good luck hug. Another fellow offered a conversation. He was from Dubai and is on a trip with his two children to attend the burial of his wife’s father in Negros. Another face smiled asking if it’s ok for her and her boy friend to sit beside me. After a few exchange of words, I had known that her name is Sonia working as OFW in Taiwan and came to meet her boyfriend in person for the first time. They were together for a couple of months. Her boyfriend a seaman was so quiet and shy. A moment later, Berna, my college colleague arrived with a jacket for my trip. I am so fortunate to have meet all these people a’least i had someone to share the waiting time in the wee hours of the day. Berna treated me with a delightful meal coupled with a lot of chitchats”,) geeeeh i was so full that i all my senses awaken. I almost forgot its already 4:00 a.m. and i the check-in counter is now open. As I waited for PR 508 bound to Singapore, I came across a Malaysian who visited Manila on a business trip and a fellow filipina going to Abu Dhabi.
At Changi Airport, I gave my embarkation card to the immigration officer, got my things and happily met Mitch Grejaldo, a college friend staying in Singapore for almost three years. We posed for a number of times at the airport’s edifice and hired a cab to my auntie’s place.
I unpacked my things, had a warm shower and ready myself for my first day adventure at Singapore. Mitch took me to Sentosa where i enjoyed the rest of the afternoon. We visited Imbiah Terrace, The Merlion, Merlion Walk, Sky Tower, Underwater
World, Butterfly Garden, Siloso, Songs of the Sea and had dinner at the calming view of the food stalls at Palawan Beach. We take lots of souviner photos; each unveiling its storiesto be told.
My second day is a Sunday. we hear mass at St. Vincent Church and met with my other aunties at the Lucky Plaza. After lunch, Mitch and i
met at the trains to have a peep of Malaysia. We exited Singapore and went to Johor Bahru (JB). The fare was around .64 sgd approximately P20.00. The boundary site was not that commendable. The air smells filthy yet we managed to enjoy. We pose at their plaza, road signs, and visited the Sultan Garden. It wasfun fun fun!!!24th of September my Auntie and cousins arrived at Changi airport. Mitch And I came over to fetch them. We had ice cream while waiting for
their two other cousins from the Philippines. We started our day shopping at Sim Lim square where you can see all gadgets and techs of the modern world. We stroll and stroll and stroll. It was all about walking that some of us complained tirelessly. Indeed Singapore it best travelled by foot. We drop off Botanical Gardens, Orchard Road for more shopping and finally decided to have dinner at Clarke Quay. The place is so posh. We had supper at Lotus Grill. They served good food though it really cost too much. We ended our day at the Raffles Hotel where we sip the world reknowned Singapore Sling. Dosed with a little alcohol the group fused on which way to go hopping off the bus. After a 30-minute walk we reached the hotel alas and snoozingly slept.
The next day, we went to Singapore Zoo. We checked our relatives if they are being fed the right way (bwahahahaha jokingly). We went to Chinatown, Vivo City, Sentosa and ended our day dinning at Palawan Beach. We sat together conversing the experiences we had, Laughing, giggling.
And so soon we left our footmarks at Singapore”,)
Manila, Manila
May 9, 2008May 1st…mom and i packed our things and went straight to Cabatuan Airport. Our flight was bound Manila to fetch my aunt whose trip apparently was delayed…Believe it or not it was my first trip via plane (and to think am already 22 years old, better late than never they say”,).
We went straight to the hotel to unpack our things and rest for a while. After which we headed to Baclaran church and later stroll to explore factory goods sold outside the church.We take a look at their sales and bought a few for ourselves. Hungry, we went to Mall of Asia to recharge. There, we met up with my college friends at went for a get together with some other schoolmates at Starbucks, Greenbelt. We chitchats over a coffee and merrily went home around past the hour of ten.
May 2nd…we rented a taxi to fetch my auntie at the airport at not so long enough the three of us were bonding already.We shop, dined, and bridged the time were apart with exchange of stories and endless laughters.
Soon we left Manila and went home to iloilo.
B O R A C A Y I S L A N D…my 8th visit",)
April 28, 2008
I’ve been to this ISLAND which many people call as their haven of relaxation for almost a couple of times. Maybe its my 8th visit last April 12-14, ‘08 yet every visit is incomparable to the first, the second and so counting my coming back.
Day 1
This time i’ve packed not only my swimmming gear and summer attires but also secured a sumptuous viand and picka picka for the long drive. For almost a week of planning what to do and what to wear my friend and i jump off to Boracay for a weekend at the break of dawn; April 12. We were accompanied by my father to the bus stop half past 3 o’clock in the morning. Excited as we are we rode a different bus (sigh). We take off ilo-caticlan trip quarter to 5 a.m. The bus was full that we were left to sat on a stool my butt ached so bad,. Good thing we had stop over so that i could stretch every now an then.
We arrived caticlan jetty port almost 11a.m. my partner with one of our common friend sat waiting for us. They were relief from waiting for another hour. We hurriedly bought our tickets and rush our way to the boat. We were like children lining up with glittery eyes, cant help but see the paradise that awaits us. And so this is it. With the rushing of the waters, breaking into the island’s shore, we finnaly arrived. We took a motorcycle ride to LMs resot. We had an hour of unpacking our things that our stomach growled for hunger. We had lunch at CASA PILAR. They served well done crispy pata, native chicken ‘binakol’. We also had chapsuey. T’was worthwhile. After the sumptuous meal, we slept for about 2 hrs to recharge our energy for the rest of the day.
We got up and ready ourselves for a feel of the beach. With our swim suits on we enjoyed the waters. We watched the sunset. We posed for our photos to be taken. We let go od the things we worry about. This time we only had so mush fun and relaxation in our minds. We take advantage of the massahe services of the locals and lay down against the sand. We went back to the cottage and fill our hunger. We shared with the resort owner the ‘estofado’ we brought and the four of us happily dines together.
Day 2
We woke up almost 7 in the morning. We took a bath in our place and went to Mang Inasal to have our lunch. Again we were so full that we wanted to sleep yet we do not want to let go of the chance to strol along the serene place od Boracay. We looked for merchandises the ysold and walked our way to take souviner photots. Krisha and I decided to stay af the beach front of Boracay Regency. She was busy takinf photos while i can’t help myself but to sleep under the heat of the sun. So for an hour i was there, while the teo of our companions went back to our place and take a nap.
46 minutes past four we reched our place and git ready for another fun swimming. We had a sip of beer and our chips. We untiringly watched the beautigul sunset before us and made our own personal wishes.
Our local friend treated us for a rooftop dinner. She introfuced her partner who apparently was a common friend of our friends. What a small world, indeed people go in circles",) Our dinner was exciting. Knowing new a face. We had beer near the seashore and enjoyed the cold summer breeze. We shared stories and exchanged smiles. NO WORRIES… ONLY PURE JOY!
DAY 3
We woke up a lottle early. I prepared coffee for breakfast. The weather was not on our side. Heavy rain pured, with thunder and lightning. I almost thought we couldnt make it back home. On the other hand i felt nature would also want ud to stay the way we wanted to extend our vacation. But our leaves are over and we MUST get back to work.
And so we went back home taking antique-iloilo route. We had stopped over in Barbaza where i got a very special present. It was something that i wish could last a lifetime",) Around 8p.m. Krisha and i arrives safely in our home",)
F O U R Y E A R S A G O
April 24, 2008F O U R Y E A R S A G O
Our story began one Sunday morning when the brother of my boardmate, thea (I believe your friends online) came over our boarding house with his 6yr old nephew. He invited us for an open house at . I was quite hesitant then to come with them since the Director lives in the same street where I am residing”,) but since I always make up reasons turning down any of his offer, I accepted the invite. We arrived at ten minutes before the mass is over (in short pwerte kami ka late sa misa). Thea knew a lot of people and introduced me. I could hardly remember where I first meet joseph. But he attests that we met at the back portion of the center aisle infront of the altar. We went to Ersal’s room to wait for ng arhi but minutes had passed and still he wasnt around. thus we decided to take a tour while ersal is changing. We went all the way up to the fourth floor and i think thats where i met ‘him’ as far as i could remember. Ungko was kind enough to show us the place though i wasnt listening attentively to him. Joseph directed us to their canteen where his classmates were singing merrily and he offered snacks. We had little chats and giggles. We had the chance to casually know each other. Soon ng archi came but did not sat with us. It was only ungko who stayed with me while Thea is busy watching over her nephew. Joseph asked me a couple of questions one of them was the school am in. U.P. to my surprise, he conveyed that upians/piyups pips are liberated…always on night outs… T hambl ko kana i could not change what you think. anu pa b ang pulos ka ihambl ko if you had it fixed in your mind. (That was our first debate) hahahahaha
While we were conversing earnestly I felt something strange and was guilty about it. so i decided to leave. I called my mom infront of thea and joseph to make up reasons that i need to bring the key of the small cafe i used to own. (te lusot eh. gindul ong da man ako 2 pagwa) I hurriedly ride the ’sikad’ bwahahahhaha bahala tanda jan basta nagsikad ako asta sa highway sa Iloilo Supermart. kabuhay mag agi ang taxi mung y man jeep. Joseph asked me to stay since the clouds were getting dark and twas about to drip. hard headed, i went my way home.
Thea went back in our place late 8 that evening.TWO WEEKS PAST
During our class, one afternonn…
I recieved a text message from ‘him’. I didnt know he had a cp then or if they were allowed to have one. I replied addressing him bro…hahahhah ahay:( t hambl na joseph lang kay too formal ok then t joseph man eh. When I met thea that night she confessed she gave my no. to ungko. t mabuot man kunu si ungko. hahahaha t cge dlg gani.dats how we started texting each other.
from that day onwards ungko sends messages every 5 o’clock a.m. (baw gapangyangaw gid! hahaha) raway gali kung na sanay kaw dun noh? pag untat na text kankon gnapangita k man..
Note: edited reply to my sistah macy”,)
Summer Spree
April 7, 2008A few days from now and i’ll be off to spend a summer spree vacation with my love and two (2) profound friends of my life. I have been counting minutes of every hours each passing day…
Count 5… Count 4…and now only three more days…
Soon enough along with the sunrise…We will carry our things..And enjoy the rest of the trip…
THE PROWESS OF OUR MINDS
February 19, 2008"They say your mind can make or break you" - i have heard this line from an acquiaintance and was struck the moment the words come in to my mind.
It’s as if my brainn had leaped to where it was, affirming such statement. Indeed, she was and still is, RIGHT.
When we were little kids we were taught to dream high. Think big and reach for our goals. We were never taught to fail but rather how to stand up in every trials we may encounter. From then and onwards, we have framed our minds to be able to withstand life’s turmoils and unwanted circumstances. We do not take failure as a reason for not wanting and aiming more…
As we live our lives, came our adolescence; we take time putting together the small pieces we have had in preparation for our future. Chosen a degree and enrolled ourselves to the prestigious university in town. Soon we graduate and leave the portals that had equipped us with tools we need to have.
As in my case, I had chosen to be employed as one of the administrative officer in a daily publication in our region for more then a year nearing two now. I am committed to a my boyfriend who is leading to a vocation most unlikely of the majority. We have been together for more than three (3) years and thankfully still counting(",)
Taking our story, i confess that my mind for the past has been clouded with a lot of apprehensions and what ifs… I even took a number steps closer before when we had our first date. I confronted him of a number of things… jumping to a crucial topic than just simply enjoying the jest of the first times… I was far more concerned of the future… of the what will be’s… forgeting to savour every moment there is. Hence, like my clouded mind, our relationship had gone through that dark and rocky road where my the cloud on my mind had casted its shadows.
I could say that for so many atimes, the light that radiates in side of me had flickered from the winds that blew beneath. Struggling and yet remains to be lit. What i have been through is nothing… incomparable of what is to come. Hence, i am very proud to say atleast i have made it through and still is fighting for my one great love. I believe… and so be it 
For the moment, i am more than happy to share my thoughts. my convictions. And with that in mind and heart I shall continue to live. Full of spirit and vitality, came along that unexplainable joy i am experiencing. If i had only settled to crying my heart out during the days I am expected to be, I would not be as happy as i am today.
I"ndeed, she was right"… What you have in mind, greatly affect the person you are. So be careful of what you think. As for me, i shall and will continously think of being happy with him.
Hear the drums beat!
February 9, 2008The short and long hand of the clock points to number 12. People in the household busy themselves creating noises as we all welcome the year of the rat. New year, new life!
They say that what you on this first of each year shall radiates to the rest od the calendar days. Indeed the folks are true. As merry as we celebrated the first day so are the days of the first month.
January in the Philippines signifies the start of a long list of festivities. Among the highly celebrated od all is the feast of Sr. Sto.
"SINULOG" Pit Senior!!!
Every third week of the month, Cebu with Aklan (Ati-Atihan) simultaneously, celebrates Sinulog. The commemoration od highlighed by the fluvial parade at the waters of cebu and a procession in the afternoon followed by a high mass at the Basilica Minore de Cebu. People from all walks of life, light their candlesticks and dance to the Sinulog beat. and for the 2nd year i attended the merrymaking with mom dad and angeli",)
"Dinagyang" Hala bita Iloilo, Viva Sr. Sto Nino"
In the last Sunday of January, ilonggos give honor to the Sto. Nino. Jaro Cathedral is flooded by a number of devotees not only from naighboring regions but the rest od the world as well. Aeucharistic celebration every hour was done to accomodate a huge size of devotees.
A showcase of ilonggos’ talents is very evident in its "Dinagyang Festival". the parade of colorfull custumes matched with the exquisite presentations from the contesting tribes left the audience in awe making them look forward to more of next years event. Private and Public entities in any way they could, take part in making the merrymaking worthwhile. Some give out food for free.
I even met a fellow from cagayan de oro. He has been witnessing the fascinating event for almost 13 years now. This is his own way of thnking Sr. Sto Nino for the blessings showered him.
OOoooppppssss!!!! I almost forgot. Having attended these, i also discovered my long lost fondness taking pictures…") fyi my shots were accomodated at the front page of our newspaper! (whaaaa insi man gid tikalon ah hikhik)
well, just hope for all the best to come:)
wandering into this life’s trail
November 28, 2007it's been quite a long while since i happen to have time to sat down unto this old porch with the cold breeze blowing my hands brushing my hair and my mind wandering into distant thoughts.
could this be reality? my subconscious mind argues but to its own self. i never have imagined i could have gone this far; far to where my childhood dreams had envisioned myself tewnty two long years before.
i have gone through the innocence of my childhood years, the adventures of being a teenager, the bitter sweet experiences of an adolescent, and yet to know what is like to be a real adult.
now, i have a job of my own and a carrer to pursue. a partner and a relationship to keep on fighting for. a family and a home to protect.
it seems that through the years i've been struggling to win life's battle strong willed to reach my dreams…yet as the years passess by…and daily endeavors take me to test, i find myself looking at a corner asking myself if this is really the road i want to take or had i only taken it due to circumstances? could my dreams have driften along?
wherever life's road may take me, i pray that god's will be done and that he may send me his angel to help through that when its my time to leave this world, i could held my head up high becausei have been a good example of my ownself, child to my parent, sister to my siblings, partner to my better half and friend to the many others who i happen to meet in this world.
i wish myself after i have had this important reflection to make good and be better each time of day.
Dumaguete
September 29, 2007i was so excited, my heart jumped for joy when i got the text message from my boss that the burreau manager in bacolod had requested my presence to help her out in our circulation project in Dumaguete. Yeppeeey! this sound a lot of fun! 16th of this month, a rainy sunday afternoon i carried my luggage to the port waiting patiently for the next trip off to bacolod city. weesam express fast craft arrived the port of bacolod at about 1640. all passengers went down dripping.
i headed to sm city to chill out for a while for it was too early to go straight to the hotel room and lock yourself to boredom…and so i go window shopping (what a penniless dude i am) giggles.
(for update)
love
September 22, 2007Love is best felt rather than described.
It is more than the joys painted in the eyes of a lover who has gotten his first kiss from the thin red lips of his awed lady…It is but heavier than the dripping rain caused by a low pressure or a passing typhoon…It is likely that rays of the rising sun in the midsummer, bright and inviting, tempting almost everyone to enjoy the summer breeze…
ironicaly, though i have typed some of my thougts of how love is, words are not enough to suffice its real meaning. at some points, love is better expressed more than words that our mouth utters.
comments
September 14, 2007comments are statements made by other people to another. it may come in many different ways. positive comments boost one's confidence and self-esteem while negative comments could either make or break a person depending on how the latter would confront on an issue.
there are those tactless set of junk who just keep on popping out stories as if they are woven with the exact minute details, however, hiding the genuine fact. there are those who just make such remarks to hurt other people's feelings for it is where they find their so-called 'joy' and 'comtentment'. but who are they to leave one? they are just so bitter themselves that they want to spread this contagious disease of commenting to other people's soil rather than helping them toil.
many people will surely tell you want and how to do things as if they've perfected life itself.
live your life the way you wanted it. it is but only YOURS anyway.
smile
September 13, 2007a simple smile could brighten one's day. having a good aura for the day, ables to you touch other people's lives without you noticing it. so before you even start your work, smile ",) it makes you look wonderful…
Quotes
September 1, 2007Quotes are misleading… oftentimes conflicting.
It could entice ones imagination and further injects a positive effect. On the other hand, quotes have the power to fuel ones angst as if tolerating every inch of mediocrity to the nth level giving way to exaggeration of one's feeling.
Quotes as they are, are quoted from life's scenes… Maybe from pathetic people who longs to be remembered.
on life…
life is like taking a course. You either pass or fail… At some point when you got marks such as retake or incomplete you are subject to have it all over again or just polish on specific details.
Along life's roads, never dare to use anyone as an object of your back subject 'coz you might be falling unto your own trap.
Never let someone cling to you if you only mean to say goodbye.
Say what you only mean, for what is the sense of passing a course if deep inside you are fooling no one other than your own self
Questions
Questions just pop out and linger to human mind….
Questions are asked not because the answers were not known but because somehow, someone wishes that such answers are not true…
yet, some questions are best left unanswered…
Holding On
August 20, 2007Holding On - This is where I am right now… I believe and I am happy of the fact that i can face the whole world shouting what i am feeling deep down inside. Many things just so happen like that in my everyday life…
As i wake up each morning preparing my stuff to work, our helper had almost finish her second round of washing; only two boarders were left waiting for their afternoon classes while the others already off to school; my siblings are channeled to what they are supposed to do(studying).
As i hurried catching my steps to our office, i passes by a busy street with heavy foot traffic; jeepneys manning their car engine to get ahead of the other for a passenger who pays merely P7.00 in a ride (while some cops just have their FREE ride); peddlers almost everywhere trying to sell almost everything; beggars sitting in corners (as if they had their own territories ).
As i enterned the office, employees are busy doing their tasks. The moment i am sitted in my chair, it seems that my phoneline never runs out of calls (blaah blaaah blaaaah). I first gaze opun our daily publication and check on the articles and some of its contents. Then after a few moments, i could fnd myself signing all cash advances and leave forms for approval. (tsk tsk tsk)
Comes the hour of… 12… (lunch break)…3 …(break time)… 5… (off we go home)… Maybe some working buddies have this set of schedule… i hate and a love the fact that i dont",)
Yet, at the end of the day, as i go to bed, before i close my eyes, there is one thing that i am certain of… and that is to hold on to this feeling… of loving him more and more each day.
"Life is painfully beautiful"
August 8, 2007It's been but only a week … time alone knows how things had come my way. Indeed, all else is contanstly changing… in a fast phase (as for me maybe, yet ,still so slow to some). The endeavor that i've gone through was but a memory in the past that i shall keep.
Love, is more powerful than any other sword; any armor or weapon this world could ever have; a statement that I deem to hold true in the whole universe. People live loving other people. It is with such reason that a woman gives birth to a child. Thus, a new soul breathe the bounty of God's gift every minute of our life. Love is first given (by our parents) and then earned (from other people) as one battle for existence. Most importantly, love is experienced. Experiences vary from one person to another. One may be fortunate for the love of their family. Another for the love of friends. It doesn't really matter who give and who take in return. "Maybe i have learned love the hardest way" ( I qoute myself)…
"Life they say is painfully beautiful". I felt and is still feeling a pinch on me typing the said line. But then again, the battle has just began. There's more to life for me and for you to unfold. Just keep going…
Selfishness not selflessness
August 3, 2007I am relly hurt when someone throw me these lines…I was just fighting for what i feel…all the while, at least for me, i am not thinking about myself but of us…yet…maybe in the coarse of loving him i had hurt him so much…
am i really selfish if i love him? would letting go means the ultimate love? so will everyone else settle in letting go?
i am so saddened by all of these… i know all i wanted was a hug from him… and i will feel damn good…
call me selfish…but this am sure is what i feel and what i want…him..
bad birthday
August 2, 2007it’s my birthday! yet i feel so empty from deep within…i just want to stroll until i get to nowhere;( its so sad how you thought everything will soon be okay between the two of you. yet in the end, you just knew its you alone…is this really the end? or just an ordeal for the relationship to surpass? I love thee with all of me…
i wish
August 1, 2007I wish its my heart that cries… so that nobody couls see… so that nobody could hear… I wish i could be as numb as a frozen fish…so that i could feel completely nothing when stabbed directly into my face… i wish was just a paper …so that i could be crumpled, torn into pieces and thrown away any time when they felt am of no need…i just wish…all the things there is to be…yet am still far more thankful i am not.
Lame Excuse
July 28, 2007I was struck by the sharing of an ex-seminarian. I am not quite sure if he was just fussing with what had happened or just kidding around. But for me it was the lousiest and a lame excuse I’ve ever heard to give for a break-up. Let us call this friend of mine ‘Limor’. I first knew of him from my ‘you know who’. They were on their formation year then. FYI: Formation year takes place on the third year of theological studies. This is a non-academic program.
Limor and I usually bump o to each other in this small city of ours. Until I heard from my ‘you know who’ that he’d decided to change his chosen vocation. He did not pursue the remaining three months of their formation but rather was busy coming up to the next world he is about to live in. I attended their graduation eve and saw him there with his new found ‘friends’ (they are those who work with one of the call centers in the province).
And so that was the last time I’ve ever seen this Limor. We were preoccupied with our own lives and did not have any communication not until I surf the net and added him on in my friendster list. It was first hi/s and hello/s. Then the usual ‘musta na?’ Until he shared that he was no longer together with this girl.
So what perked me up to write this blog? What is the reason that my voice box was irritated? This Limor emailed me that he was so devastated that his now ‘ex’ told him that she fell out of love the time Limor went out the seminary…. (Ding! ding! got yeah!) That line was the most stupid line (b@!$#!+%^%*(&%#&%*) how nice to just press on shift and the number sign and then goes your curse.
Commentaries: Honestly, i want to slap this girls' face if she only had it with me! hahaha am i that bad? don't think so. But having said those lines makes me think that this girl is out of here mind. Day, wala ka ya ka math 101 haw? Huya huya laman gamay ah! So you fall for Lomir just because he is a seminarian? Fall out of love and decided to break up with him the time he decided to leave his vow and pursue you? what a haste! You should have cleared your thoughts first and checked on your feelings before you had a relationaship with him. What were your motives? On the brighter side, it was good of you to straight forward show this pitty fellow the real you while your relationship is still novice. Pasalamat pa xa eh daad noh? kay gnbulagan mu sya daun?
P.S. for that girl: I maybe so judgemental and driven by my emotions when i had this article. Maybe i should be rational of your feelings as well… I may not know what had happened… maybe the relationship was not for the both of you…maybe you have reasons that reasons itself can't understand… If you happen to come accros this blog, feel free to leave a note",)
I'll be more than open to hear from you…
